A brief update. I saw the doctor today and he confirms the damage to the calves more than likely did come from the Zetia and Pravachol. There is no other drug to take their place. Calmly he turned and told me that my chances of stroke or heart attack were now increased by 2/3. Nice. Just nice.
To have been on the drugs for over 10 years and they are only now causing damage and severe pain is incredible rare. Well, hello!!! How long has every doctor who has diagnosed me said that what I had was very rare. God must think me very special. I like him, too. I take none of these challenges with anger or revenge but intend to grow mentally and physically from them. And be a better person than I am at this very moment.
A couple of my friends think this is all made up and hypochondria.. you know those... they seldom see the doctor, have an emergency and take no to few pills. For some reason, these selfish morons. think that everyone is just like them and if you are not... you have a "mental" problem. I'd like to give them a mental problem, a slap to the head. It wastes my love and determination to deal with those who have and degrade the have-nots. One day, God will flip them in the side of the head and wonder what they were thinking.
I was told to get a blood test soon and see him in 3 months. IF my blood has shoot over the moon we will again try the Pravachol. If not, the diet and excercise is helping. Meanwhile, of course, I worry over every sharp pain in the chest or head. I now God has a reason for me. I will do my bestl A little luck coming from you would surely help.
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Sunday, February 03, 2013
I Choose To Feel Special
I can't believe it is February. I have been here, life has been moving along and yet somehow, I got neutral and fogged in my duties to blog. It is actually a good thing because things have been quite normal. We are again sharing coughs, sneezes and sore throats. Which I am blaming a lot on the very bad air quality we've had for weeks. One day, Salt Lake was rated No. 1 for having the worst air quality in the country. That's nice. That's not something we want to be No. 1 for.
An update on my legs and my Christmas Miracle. Remember I told you I still had some discomfort but nothing like the crippling, excruciating pain of Nov and Dec? The past 2 weeks I noticed that the pain and tightening in my calves and upper thighs was returning more day by day.Around Jan.26 I arose and noticed the pain was rapidly increasing and by last Tuesday I could barely get up or lift my legs. (However,very painful... NOT the overwhelming pain of before). My neighbor is a recently retired nurse who saw me get out of my car and wince to the door. We talked and the phone and she convinced me to call the doctor immediately. So, the current story is I am now also off my cholesterol medicine which for 11 yrs was Lipitor and the last 6 months, Pravachol. Apparently, between the Zetia and Pravachol, Lipitor, all statins... my muscles were straining to a point of rupturing.
I meet with the doctor this Wednesday to see where to go next for my high cholesterol and triglycerides. Not only that, I can no longer afford my insulin. Obamacare has scared the drug companies into cutting back on samples for doctors. The insulin would cost me $228 about every 4 weeks and I do not have the money. I am scared. Serious dieting must happen... but what will he suggest when I have Diabetes, Crohn's Disease, Gastroparesis, High Cholesterol and the diets contradict each other?
I am praying the Lord will bless the doctor with wisdom and help for me. Without my chol. meds I fear every day of stroke or heart attack. It is so much to think about and I could easily fall into a mental blob of pity and severe anxiety or anger wondering why.
I choose to feel special, to feel that God had a better purpose for me on this earth and perhaps I had to see these challenges to reach the stage I can be of a greater service to Him. God is not cruel or vengeful and surely I must have been a good candidate in the pre-existence and I hope to not let Him down.
Anytime I spend looking back and feeling sad, distracts and takes away time I need now to move forward in taking the next steps.
An update on my legs and my Christmas Miracle. Remember I told you I still had some discomfort but nothing like the crippling, excruciating pain of Nov and Dec? The past 2 weeks I noticed that the pain and tightening in my calves and upper thighs was returning more day by day.Around Jan.26 I arose and noticed the pain was rapidly increasing and by last Tuesday I could barely get up or lift my legs. (However,very painful... NOT the overwhelming pain of before). My neighbor is a recently retired nurse who saw me get out of my car and wince to the door. We talked and the phone and she convinced me to call the doctor immediately. So, the current story is I am now also off my cholesterol medicine which for 11 yrs was Lipitor and the last 6 months, Pravachol. Apparently, between the Zetia and Pravachol, Lipitor, all statins... my muscles were straining to a point of rupturing.
I meet with the doctor this Wednesday to see where to go next for my high cholesterol and triglycerides. Not only that, I can no longer afford my insulin. Obamacare has scared the drug companies into cutting back on samples for doctors. The insulin would cost me $228 about every 4 weeks and I do not have the money. I am scared. Serious dieting must happen... but what will he suggest when I have Diabetes, Crohn's Disease, Gastroparesis, High Cholesterol and the diets contradict each other?
I am praying the Lord will bless the doctor with wisdom and help for me. Without my chol. meds I fear every day of stroke or heart attack. It is so much to think about and I could easily fall into a mental blob of pity and severe anxiety or anger wondering why.
I choose to feel special, to feel that God had a better purpose for me on this earth and perhaps I had to see these challenges to reach the stage I can be of a greater service to Him. God is not cruel or vengeful and surely I must have been a good candidate in the pre-existence and I hope to not let Him down.
Anytime I spend looking back and feeling sad, distracts and takes away time I need now to move forward in taking the next steps.
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