A Quick Mix Pkg

Bill seems to have made a final decision. No more operations concerning the defibrillator and pacemaker. The doctors and Bill have decided to keep him on antibiotics the rest of his life and hope that will be sufficient. He is feeling better than a long time but his weakness is still there. Family is going to try and keep him active, keep his spirits and make his life more eventful.  He tends to let his frustration and fears a priority instead of his blessings and his family. But, I think that is normal considering all that he has gone through for some time.

Next week I have to sit with my doctor and explain to him the Zetia episode and how no others will ever have to go through what I did. I still have pain in my calves that on occasion will buckle my knee but they are now few and far between. I am aware this may never go away, but the crippling pain that kept me in tears and writhing in agony seem to be over. Andrew left a fairly large toy in my hallway. 4 weeks ago I would have had to ask someone to move it or try to slide my foot enough to move it a bit away as I could not get my foot the 4" off the ground to walk over it.

Sometimes, people should take the time to weigh the good things in their life against the bad. It truly puts things in perspective. Sure, I have quite a few afflictions, most will never ease or be cured, however I know of many who have just 1 or 2 afflictions that will end their lives in a few months or year or two, some who can no longer walk or care for themselves and a dear, sweet friend who has troubles remembering the simplest of things. An artist friend, so crippled with arthritis she can no longer even sign her name.

I still have the issues with all my digestion from the semi working epiglottis that at times has caused me to choke to near unconsciousness just by swallowing wrong while talking, or swallowing with my head straight up instead of leaning forward. The wrong foods, and wow, there are so many now that can make me ill for several days. The Crohn's disease that calls for one diet, Diabetes call for another, Gastroparesis calls for another and the cholesterol calls for yet another. My doctor has said we can only log it and go by trial and error. I fear I may never lose the 20-25# I need to when most I can eat are  high in carbs and calories. Soon, the sciatic nerve will be in remission and I can get on my dear
exercise bike and slowly work up to a good length of work out.

Well, I have truly rambled thru much tonight but with the grandkids wanting computer time, by the time I get it at night, I am too tired.

Tale care. Be Happy and find Peace and Joy in something each day.