The Pain Is Coming Back.

I don't write of my crazy afflictions in any way to pull in some sympathy. Just the opposite happens to me.. you say how sorry you feel or how worried you are about me and I pull in your sorrow and concerns and wrap it up into a dose of optimism. I grow from your support, not your sadness. It is not I don't appreciate your humble words of condolence or sorrow for me but knowing you are there with me, always, is literally like taking a pill. An upper, an energy booster.  You send me from feeling alone here in this blogasphere or on facebook to a higher degree. My worries and pain has a support system.  I just try to leave out my occasional bursts of utter sorrow and fear. Now, tears are the best medicine of all.
Tears let the dam break; allow the tension and fears to burst open and flow freely, relieving the pressure that has been building and building. Tension and fear, literally, tightens your muscles. Soon you not only have stress and worry, your muscles begin to ache and tense and you are a mess. Cry.
In front of your family, in your bathroom or under covers. God gave us tears and emotions for a reason. It can be refreshing, like a sauna, hot tub, pedicure or haircut.
Just days after my doctor felt my legs were strictly a sign of the Zetia and Pravachol, the pain is coming back. It is almost as if the tendons behind my knees and around my ankles are stretched to a breaking point. I am back to waking every 30 min or so to sit up and lift my leg up and wrap the blanket to keep it from touching the other leg. My ankles are getting so painful I have to sit up in bed and lift them, place them and moan as I try to position them.
Was it the medicine? It is not the Sciatic Pinch I deal with.. it is once again getting to a point where my mobility is in peril. Could the damage have been done and this is it? Or is it more? Am I missing fluid in my joints and bone to bone?
I ask little more than good thoughts and positive attitudes. Maybe it isn't the meds I took and stopped? Or maybe the damage is permanent. Or ????   Time to go back to work on it before I begin to be unable to walk. I don't plan on letting that happen, The calf pain is coming back...pray for me.