Stick with me, please.  I've had a strong inspiration i know will help all of us.
After I meet with the specialist and learn my limitations and dietary requirements I will share them with all of you. I know there are thousand across the world with stomach and digestion issues, many who can't afford to see the dietitian or learn what to do.  I hope to help.
Afterwards, I will open another blog dedicated to those of us who could learn from each other. I will visit local eateries and list foods that are beneficial and those to avoid. Place that can cater to those with tender tummies, etc. I think it will be fun and educational and help us lighten the burden of living with this discomfort.  We can do it. I only hope you will be with me. When I finally get my new camera out of the bag and memory cards installed and charged it will be fun to include pictures of the foods at the different locations. I have a very good feeling about it.
This blog will remain for my craziness, updates and confidences to you just as before.  I will let you know. This could be the start of a great relationship.

I am trying so hard not to be sad or negative but it is hard when you are starving all day long and what few items you can eat are now making you sick. Thank Goodness, I learned today that I meet with the specialist this Thursday @12:40 pm. My daughter will come with me to help me absorb it all and remember the most important things. Why did they make me wait 5 weeks? That can't be normal, can it?
My brain is getting slower and foggy. I often have to think a sentence through before I can answer.My body is screaming, "feed me". I am trying, dear body, do not give out on me as we are so close to finding the answers and fixing the problem.
Most of my facebook friends have no idea how serious things have been the past few months. I want to rant and cry and state my frustrations but we all have troubles. Some like to share them, others like to keep everything below the surface. You can't blame them.
I need my hummingbirds to entertain and enthrall me. Hope the hurry soon. You can see I am sad tonight, I am sorry. I like to keep those things secret.

We got the device hooked up and now have Netflix on the front room television. I've been paying the monthly fee for 2 years so the kids could watch movies on my computer whenever they came over. It will be fun having such a great selection of things to watch.  Now, my dilemma. I am bundled with Century Link for my phone, internet & Direct TV. I have to call to see what harm it is going to do me to drop satellite. I am sure they will raise my monthly phone rate but was locked into a plan for the internet for 5 years so...  wish me luck. The whole point is to save money where we can but it won't help much if we are heavily penalized for messing with the bundle.
Haven't checked yet, but am hoping for the tv series, "Magnum P.I.". Tom Selleck is my man.

Love Sunday evenings... The Amazing Race and The Good Wife. Wow. I love that the Race takes me around the world, though sometimes some of those racing have few endearing qualities. The Good Wife has a very good cast, made better by incredible writing that hasn't failed an episode yet. Believable dialogue with a well thought out story is everything.

Well. I've sat here for 10 minutes thinking about what to type. It has been such a gray day. The wind is still blowing and expected to increase to 50-60 mph gusts after midnight tonight as a storm front moves in. Partly cloudy skies mixed with dust, dirty cars ( mine is so splotched), ornery people and still being stomach- miserable has made for just an "iffy" day. Pepto Bismol is my best friend at the moment. In the past years I've tried Mylanta and store brands but always went back to Pepto.TMI? It shouldn't be because we all have stomachs and troubles now and then. We focus so much on the exterior that we can't talk about the interior... and that's why people get sicker than they need to be. Embarrassment or awkwardness is no excuse not to seek help when necessary because if you don't you are risking greater health drama or death. I have lost friends because they put things off til they were critical.

Trying hard not to get too concerned but all day I have been quite sick again...go back a couple of months when I couldn't eat without pain and stomach distress. I've been extra careful what I do eat to let my throat heal and see the dr. But today, things went into a nose dive and cramping and severe abdominal pain are back. Will call the doctor for a liquid diet sheet. I am in way pain, using all the creams I can but it feel like I have kerosene in me. Wouldn't wish it on an enemy.
If you have suggestions, I would be ever so grateful to hear them. It's been to long to be like this.
So, understandably it is uncomfortable to sit long tonight so keeping it short.
Thank you for being there. I have given some of you faces.

Sometimes you have a bad day and just as you are about to despair you find out that others had such a worse day. I am glad my bad day wasn't so bad.

Today is my 42nd Wedding Anniversary. Who'd have thought it? We got married in Tokyo, Japan. As we were getting out of the taxi and walking into the Embassy I told my soon to be  husband I was glad it was Saturday the 14th instead of Friday the 13th. Hah, never calculated the time zones but it wouldn't have mattered. Friday the 13th has since been our favorite day and lucky number.

The wind has been relentless today. I normally enjoy blustery days but this has kicked up some dust that won't quit. The air is brown and you can taste it by this afternoon.

Today I bought 2 Sony units and cables to hook up the tv to Netflix. Great sale at Target and my employee's discount made it affordable to our cinched budget. Direct TV costs are killing us and so much of it is now repeats and moving shows to different channels to fill the space. I have loved it and don't know yet how I can watch all of NASCAR. The adjustments will be worth the savings. I haven't cancelled yet, but am having early withdrawal.

Ouch. The swelling is almost down but the pain in my mouth is still high. For some reason the dentist did a little more drilling on what I thought was a ready anchor tooth. The temporary bridge is now in again for 3 weeks before the real one takes over. It will be nearly one year to the day since we first started to fix my tooth. Drama, drama. Ora Base works miracles on sore gums..Anbesol is good but the samples of the Ora Base was better, I think.
Hey, I forgot all about my other issues for the day. Now, that is a good thing. Like reading Entertainment Weekly (my most favorite magazine) always take my mind away.I love movies, tv, music, books and knowing the behind the scene little details.Maybe that is why I write. My life has been an ongoing adventure since I was 7 yrs old that I can remember. I keep hearing I MUST write a book about my life. I think of doing it often. It definitely would not be dull.

First time ever I forgot to set the clocks forward last night. I thought tv was bewonkers until it dawned on me. I am one of those opposed to Daylight Savings but for merely selfish reasons. I don't like it light at 10 pm. The whole thing messes with your body clock. More people are getting put off by it and every year various legislatures try to get rid of it.
It has been a year since my dentist pulled a tooth I thought was just a cracked crown. Long story short. It was fractured roots. He pulled the tooth and left bone in. After convincing him 2 weeks later that something was still there he pulled out a bone the size of a shark's tooth. You got it.. 2 more weeks later I went back and he pulled out more bone tho smaller. 4 weeks later he put in a bridge. 2 months later after much relentless pain, he pulled out the bridge. Oh, he hadn't waited long enough for the gums to heal after 3 retractions and I was hamburger. Now HE is paranoid; first time in 30 years that's happened he said, so he's made me wait since Nov. 2011 to make certain the gum is healed. Tomorrow is the day. I don't know how he is going to do it, the anchor teeth are obviously ready but hey, I want to be able to chew again. One more mistake and I want my $2,000 that I couldn't afford, back. Wish me luck. Haha, these past two months have not exactly been a cakewalk. "I get knocked down, but I get up again." Love the song.

Way to go Real Salt Lake! They won their soccer game against Beckham and the LA Galaxy tonight in L.A. Now, truthfully, I don't like soccer. Played it in junior high and got beat to a pulp. I never watched or played it even when all these years later a gorgeous, huge soccer stadium was built here in Sandy, Utah. What would happen overseas at soccer games scared me.. the violence and tragedy at GAMES for crying out loud. Never was I going to be remotely close to a game.
The came Connor, a nephew of my daughter through marriage. He was one of his high school stars and they were having a Utah State Playoff here at the Real Stadium. Would I like to come?
Crap! Had to support the family so begrudgingly went along barely daring to look at first. At first. I screamed, I jumped, I yelled. But I also heard the grunts and groans, the broken hand, the smashing of unprotected bodies colliding. All in all? I had a blast! But on the way out, I knew I would not attend another game. I don't have the make-up to be in that audience. Don't get me wrong, I totally respect the game and the players, I simply cannot watch them.
Then tonight, instead of news it was the last 30 min or so of the televised game and I almost broke my couch as Real scored 3 consecutive goals. It was great. No, I still will not attend a game in person, but surely did enjoy tonight. Note, I did not use the word never.

Sorry this will be short tonight. Lack of food is catching up and I am too weak to sit at the keyboard and don't want to talk foolish ramblings.
Please, if you have read me more than once, I'd so appreciate a comment just to let me know you are real. Gotta lay down for a while. I love all of you out there.

I didn't get up until 330 am to look outside for some solar displays. I didn't see anything but a black cat that tore past me so fast I almost fell into the front door. That was enough for me.
I am getting anxious to get back to work. I am on an experimental diet of mellow foods for now.The doc needs to determine if its fiber, dairy, meds, whatever is causing my duodenum to inflame and digestion worsen. Aw, it's such a miserable topic. I banish it. When I can eat and get my strength back I'll be happy. Legs are back, but light headedness and starving is still bad.
Moving on, tonight is the last of Utah's Legislature and once again they are scrambling like bumpkin mice to pass the final bills. Once again, some are resorting to shenanigans of closed door meetings and political bribery that has slowed things down, hence the mad dash. They never learn. Each time someone is elected they make promises and denounce the practices of those who've gone before and BAM! they want to write a bill with their name on it and renew the process of power gone awry. Everyone wants to write and pass a bill.

I love hummingbirds and was like a kid in a candy store tonight watching a documentary on the PBS Channel. I am an armchair traveler and have much respect and gratitude to those who bring the world and its' wonders to my home. The photography of these tiny souls was breathtaking. Did you know the size of their eggs is comparable to a Tic Tac? They literally hibernate at night to conserve energy. It was a fascinating fundraiser for PBS so I am hoping it will be repeated this week. Perhaps Netflix would have it or PBS.com. You would enjoy it.
Tonight is a full moon, a "worm moon" to be more exact having to do with earthworms. Don't ask, that's all I know via KSL TV's meteorologist Kevin Eubank.
I am crazy but planning to set me alarm for 245 am MDT. That is 15 minutes before they are expecting the solar explosion to first affect the east coast of the U.S. Power grids could be affected, airplane communications, Northern Lights enhanced. I probably won't see anything but want to say I tried. Not that I want anything weird and Hollywood Cosmic to happen. My life is plenty full right now, thank you.

I'm sure some of you will identify with the frustrations of packaging. You need tools just to open something. It took me an hour to get my camera and all the accessories out of the toughest plastic I've ever had to deal with. Scissors, a pen, a pocket knife, scrapes on my knuckles and plenty of bad words went into it. But, I did it. This bonding got off to a rocky start. I can laugh about it now but I was near tears a few times. What cruel mind decided to seriously embed the product? One with a perverted sense of humor.

It was over 60 degrees yesterday here in Utah, tonight it is 30 and snowing. Just 10 miles west of me they have 50+ mph winds and 7 inches of snow in the past few hours; here I have an inch at most and breezy. Yesterday, my husband saw a large, yellow butterfly, today just wind and dust before the storm. I love this place. All the seasons, all the colors and mountains as high as the sky.

I bought a camera, a Cool Pix . In the early 70's I was really into photography, self taught at developing. Before I was a police dispatcher I began taking accident /fire photos for the local paper.It was all going well until a horrible day. It was Mother's Day. I think 1976.Anyone who worked in any Sandy Dept. that day remembers the Mother's Day Electrocutions.There were so many calls it overwhelmed the 911 system. 2 friends were attempting to put up an antenna for a CB in their apartment. There were wires overhead and they made contact. Both men were electrocuted and literally impaled by the pole into the ground. It was beyond horrific..the wives and children were there and being on a main street people were grabbing their CB's as well as phones and calling 911. No one was able to disconnect the men from the voltage. I didn't have my pager so someone else took the pictures but that night, for hours, I helped another officer develop them up at the fire dept. All these years later, it takes but a second to remember every detail. Shortly after, I told the departments I would not be taking pictures anymore. The whole feel of photography buried itself inside me.
But recently my need to write is growing stronger. Two things help me. One is music and the other is pictures...from magazines, calenders, old photos, book covers, etc. I was just beginning to take my own pictures for inspiration when this happened. I gave away my camera.
Well, I have a new one I must bond with. My last camera was ancient. I hope to start again and write along with it. This is a big step for me. Thanks for letting me share this part of my life.

A girlfriend from high school took me out for some soup today and it was great. Zupa's Soup Restaurant.. they are from Utah and now have 11 restaurants. They were so good... lots of variety of soups, salads and sandwiches. I had Wisconsin Cauliflower.
And yes, I got sick an hour later. But the more I can absorb the better. I can't keep being afraid or I won't get any nutrients.
We bought a Vita Mix a few days ago. My husband thinks it will save my life and help his. It is supposed to puree all types of smoothies, soups,dressings, salsas, etc. pulp and all. I will be happier when I am able to eat those things. I'll have to tell you how it works out.
Take care,my friends, I am very tired tonight. Thanks for being there where ever you are.

It's been a grueling day so forgive me for being brief.My primary care did put me onto a bad medicine that has made all my before and after "scopes" much worse. That is what caused all this intensifying pain and inability to get food down. I am now back on my Prilosec.
I was supposed, on the day of my endoscopy, to have been put on medication and a very strict diet as they found edema in my duodenum which is inflammation and tissue damage.I learned this today because I called angry wondering why no one contacted me. 6 hours later the nurse finally did. She assumed her doctor gave me meds and assumed her doctor informed me of the inflammation and need to be on a very strict diet as it takes 6-10 weeks to heal from something like this. They have yet to figure what caused it... meds, bacteria, disease, foods? I pray the doctor can see me soon
The new med my primary put me on, Dexilant greatly made things worse...burned the inflammation. So to be honest, my pain is the same as 6 weeks ago. But at least we know the colon polyps are clear. I am angry, sad, frustrated. One doctor made me worse, the other forgot me. That is why I feel of no significance. This happens too much in my life. I am a human being, why do so many not see me? Am I invisible?

I think it is tomorrow by a minute, it feels like a day since this afternoon. I am getting sicker. Again and just a little despairing. It's been a long time since I've been well and was seriously planning on telling Target to put me on the schedule in 2 weeks but how quickly things can change. I tried the nurse 2 more times with no luck, tomorrow I will insist we speak or I'll drive up there as it is so close.
My body is back almost to the end of January. Stomach pain is more severe, I choke on liquids if I swallow too fast and it looks like the intestinal infection is beginning again. What have I learned? I don't have colon cancer and all 4 polyps are gone. Great! I know little about the endoscopy other than I had an edema and the tissue right there was clear of H pylori. I went in asking them to look for Celiac, ulcers, tumors... inflammation..what is causing all my pain and inability to eat more and more foods. They never mentioned any of that and I am worrying myself that they never did all the exams as ordered. None of those issues were addressed in the test results to my primary care. I need to treat what is wrong..this can't be good for me. The doctor, 5 weeks ago, ordered me to take a new acid reflux drug called Dexilant and I have had heartburn ever since..is that part of it?
Sorry. I really am sorry. I want to tell you all this great news but I am in pain and sad and very bewildered tonight. BUT, tomorrow is another day and hopefully I can learn more and SOMEONE will tell me what I am supposed to do.
I am glad I came here tonight. Talking to you makes it easier.

Trying to get ahold of someone to explain things. Phone tag. They found an edema in the duodenum, no H pylori. No more explanations. Eating is still difficult and very tender inside the stomach, like acid. Oh, blgh! I must stop listening to other people's guesses. They mean well but it doesn't help. The doctor needs to talk to me; she scheduled me for a consult for Mar.21.Are you kidding me? I can't live on Frito's Butter Puffs, Smucker's P&J and cheese forever. That is what I mostly eat...I want other foods but soon after I try something my stomach hurts. There, I have whined enough. Oh, and pistachios.

I succumbed to self pity yesterday worrying about the results of the polyps. I finally got the call tonight from the doctor who told me this: The 3 polyps in the upper left intestines were benign but pre-cancerous meaning every 3 yrs I will have the colonoscopy. The 4th anomaly was a very inflamed tubular ana(something) that was double checked and found to be clear! YES!!!!

Now, it will take a day or two longer to find the results of my 3 stomach biopsies to see if I have Celiac Disease, Ulcers, tumors, etc. Also, apparently, the back of my throat is not working as it should in starting the swallowing process and may be why I keep having large pieces of food slip back and fall down my throat sometimes causing me to choke or cough up solid food.
Can you imagine how much better my life can be if they can find these things and have ways to fix me so I can eat more normal foods (lol, or not if I have Celiac which I CAN live with.)
To eat without fear of choking...
AND, fingers crossed, it may also show soft tissue damage that causes the back of my throat to close when I fall asleep and either stops my breathing or startles me awake with a choking feeling. My Goodness!! My life could improve to much!!! Yes, I am excited. I don't care if Celiac is difficult, it could give me a life back. Whatever they say, I will be GRATEFUL.
My only fear and I can't shake it yet, is that they will say they found nothing and don't know what to do next. I force myself not to think of it but for a quick moment. The power of positive thinking has been proven time and again to be a marvelous healing aid.